Life is Hard.
Figuring out life is so frustrating. I’m 23 years old now and I feel like everyone else has their life going in some kind of direction at my age. I’m sure that’s not true, but it certainly feels like it. You know when you’re helping someone do something and they don’t have a small task for you to do in that moment, so you’re just standing there? I feel so uncomfortable when that happens! Maybe that’s just me. Whenever I think about life in general, I think of it as a board game. I feel like I need to be doing something productive to “advance to the next level”. Does that make sense to anyone?!
I’ve been in this place before. Then I find something “big picture” productive to do. I say “big picture” because I don’t mean getting a bunch of chores done. I mean like BIG PICTURE. A good description would be that I discover something that I would want to do and start achieving goals that would help me get to that place. Either I do that, or I just distract myself with other things. I’m really good at distracting myself and other people. That’s something I’m not really proud of, but it momentarily gets me out of this grumpy attitude.
Being an Adult
I remember when I was little, I wanted to be older. I’m pretty sure everyone is like that. I even remember my older cousin telling me that I didn’t really want that, but I was stubborn! I remember thinking that he didn’t understand what I was talking about. Side note, I do remember it was because I wanted more freedom, like driving a car or I wanted people to take me seriously. As an adult, I appreciate those freedoms.
So next time you hear some kid saying they wish they were older, maybe don’t leave it with “No you don’t.” That made me so mad when I was younger. I think I would say something like “I remember when I thought that.” Maybe I would add something along the lines of “responsibility sucks” but much more thought out.
I feel like everyone has given up on beating the system. I get it. People need to get money, to pay bills, so they can live comfortably. How comfortable is your life, though, if all you’re doing is getting money to spend money? I would really love it if I could make some sort of money to live off of, but spend most of my time how I want it. We’ll see what happens. Maybe it’ll happen, maybe not.
Thank you for reading my rant. My question to you is: Have you ever been in this same situation and if you have how did you get out of it?